An Apology..

I yelled at you; Yes!,i did swear,
In my futile attempt to evade the stare;
It was the demon-the long held captive,
Raised on thoughts,active and reactive.

He did gnaw at me from deep within,
Resilience erased,the wall was erect;
In what i thought could save my skin,
I,held your love suspect.

I succumbed to the fear-closed my eyes,
Letting my mind veer out of place;
Badly,wanting to see you cry,
I forgot,life was,the smile on your face.

Now,i guess i know who deserves the blame-
The one at fault from the start;
It was never you-but me
That'd stopped listening to his heart.

I know it's all broken beyond repair,
If there is a moment of kindness,yet to spare,
I'd just love to apologize,
And try to put to practice,whatever's been realized.